Friday, September 24, 2004

What's with the fish?

Yes, I've noticed that some of you are particularly dispondent over the fact that I have replaced the portrait of the Avatar of the bloody handed Kain, and general leader of the Eldar Craftworld army with...well, to be quite honest, a fish.

First of all, let's get something straight. My avatar, the miniature that I use as the leader of my army, is solidly one of the best miniature's I have ever painted. I don't know why he's so cool. I think it may have a lot to do with the fact that the miniature itself is damn cool. Regardless, a miniature like the avatar is difficult to paint, and so, as a painter, you either rise to the task and paint the bastard well, or you fall, and you paint him red. I think I did a pretty fine job.

Nevertheless, is that who I am? I think not. I am Monstro, not Avatar of the Bloody Handed God. As such, I felt it high time to have a picture of me that was more befitting to my role as would-be destroyer of all the would-be Pinnochio's of the world. Now I realize that you see the fish and you think, 'would be destroyer?' But yes, would-be destoyer. The elegant and simple fish that swims in his bowl regardless of the rise and/or fall of civilization. Truly, this is Monstro.

Not buying it? Well, me neither. Actually, the fish is called a "Monstro." That's its type. As in, "what kind of fish is that?" In any case, I like its underscored nature. It's like if you took a picture of just some ordinary woman and you used it as the cover art for a CD called, "The Best Looking Woman in the World." It seems to signal irony or something like that.

Or maybe this: maybe, the fish is a representation of my own experiences at UMass Amherst. I used to feel like this, but now I feel like the fish. But that's not really true. There was a point where the fact that every one of my fellow classmates came from serious colleges, like Harvard or Notre Dame, and that still is true. Nobody is from a CSU, but so what? It's pretty much business as usual in the classroom. Nothing's changed there (sadly). So, having been a big fish in a small pond, I should find myself now a small fish in a big pond, but I'm not. Let's say that I'm a medium sized fish now. Give me a couple of weeks.

So, I think I'm back to the underplaying of the whole massive whale attacking the falsehoods of the modern world. Yeah, that's where I'm going with this. That and I was getting tired of the Avatar.

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